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Lord, you have blessed me with amazing friends. Thank you so much for bringing the following people into my life: Sarah, Luis, Alex, Karen, Dan, Michael, Alicia, Mr. and Mrs. Reyes, Abby, Josh, Christin, Sheena, and Grace.

I pray that you bless them just as much as they have blessed me. Thank you for reflecting yourself so clearly through them. I pray that you meet their every need Jehovah Jireh. Bless them with a spirit of peace Jehovah Shalom. Thank you so much for their lives and for making their paths cross mine!

I also pray for my yl girls. Lord, please give them a spirit of wisdom and of revelation so they may recognize you and know your will for their lives. You are an amazing God! Help them see that. Please bring them to club and to campaigners each week. Please give me a spirit of gentleness when dealing with them. Give me the right words to say with any questions they may have. Help me be a reflection of You!

Lord I pray that you give me an even deeper desire to memorize your word. Help me hear the voice of truth. Destroy any stronghold that i have in my life. I only want to bow down to you. Help me understand what I am reading in Deuteronomy. Help me desire You Lord and only You.

Tired

Lord, I'm so tired and I feel so alone. Jehovah-Shalom! You are my God of peace. Please give me peace.

I love you Lord.

I can't give you much right now. I'm sorry, but I will offer a sacrifice of praise.

Thank you Lord for all that you are. I'm not sure where you are leading me Lord, but I know that you are a faithful God, and You have great plans for me.

Restore me Lord. Fill me up with your goodness. My flesh and my heart and my strength have failed me, but YOU are the strength of my heart and my portion forever.


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Give me wisdom...

Lord, I'm leading 3 bible studies. I am so nervous about them. I'm afraid I'll be lecturing instead of interacting.

Please Lord, speak through me. Help me lead these girls. Apart from you I can do NOTHING.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to serve you.

Growing Stronger Every Day...

You called and you shouted. Broke through my deafness....

I am not gonna make a space for the sin in my life anymore. God, crucify my sin! May I live by the spirit, and as I walk in the spirit may I flee from the temptations that pull me away from You, my great Lord.

My heart is restless until it rests in You.

I will no longer make provisions for my flesh. I will flee from temptation, I will starve that sin, and pursue You!

He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy. Proverbs 28:13

Annoyed

Lately, a lot of friends have been disappointing me. It's happened three different times this week. Sure, they haven't done anything huge, but it's still annoying. I wonder if you're testing me Lord? Are you showing me to always put my hope in You and never in man? It's something you're gonna have to walk me through. I'm so relational and need people around. If I don't, then I feel sad. I don't think this is necessarily wrong. You made man and saw that it was not good for him to be alone.

I'm trying not to be upset, but it's hard. Lord, help me not to go to bed angry. that's how the devil get a foothold. Honestly, i don't even know why i'm bothered. i sometimes tell people that i'm gonna do something with them and then bail out. maybe you're trying to show me how i've made people feel?

Well, i'm glad i got this out. because at first i wanted to distance myself from these people so they didn't have another opportunity to hurt me, but i'm gonna keep on loving them because that's what you called me to do.

shutting them out only hurts me

thank you for teaching me an important lesson. i think i caught a glimpse of how you feel when i sin against you. im sorry for disappointing you. you love me so much and i sin against you. next time i do, i'll remember how i felt today.

No, don't gloat over me my enemy. For though I fall, I will rise again

Have mercy on me, oh God
According to Your unfailing love
According to Your great compassion
Blot out my transgressions

Lord, I've noticed that when you're trying to tell me something you bombard me with the same message...over and over again.

Lately, the message you've been trying to get across is being your servant. I'm learning in the book of Mark how you came as a servant. thank you!

Also, I'm learning how to overcome my struggles. I'm glad I do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with my weakness. You were tempted in every way, just as I am- yet You did not sin. Aside from being God, how did you do it? HOW DO I DO IT? Saying scripture helps, but I won't lie..it get's old. It feels like a routine. Perhaps prayer? Yes, Payer! Lord, please help me overcome all that I struggle with. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! I'm tired of being lazy and a procrastinator. Honestly, I feel like the devil sometimes distracts me with dumb things. I feel like a zombie watching television or being online. Lord, help me see there's more to life! Help me desire the things that will help advance your kingdom. Convict me when I'm bumming around! Convict me when I am not being productive! Lord, save me from myself!

Strengthen me Lord.

Changes

Lord, I can still remember when I asked for you to save me, but wondering if I was really "saved." I didn't feel anything magical. Somehow I expected to hear the awe of angels or feel a warmth washing over me. Every time I heard an invitation to ask you into my life I would do it. Mostly, because I was afraid I hadn't done it right the first time.

I remember surrounding myself with my new Christian friends and sensing that they had a relationship with you. They would talk about you as if they KNEW you. I was jealous of them. I wondered why I didn't feel like you were my friend. I always wondered why I didn't experience that kind of intimacy with you. Why were they so special? What was so different about them? And then one day it changed. I really wish I could remember when that change happened. I can't even narrow it down Lord. Now, I feel like you're my friend, my father, my comforter, my counselor, I could go on and on. Maybe it happened when I spent more time in your Word. It helped me recognize your "voice." Maybe it happened when I spent time just worshiping you and loving on you.

Worship.
Another change in me.
Worship music made me so uncomfortable, but you already know that. I remember wanting to get to Jack Cru late just so I could miss out on the worship. Music has always been an important part of my life. Thank you so much for helping me overcome the awkwardness I used to feel when I sang to you. Thank you for helping me use music as an avenue of worship.

Lately, I've noticed our relationship is once again changing. I've noticed that you have given me some responsibility. You are putting me in situations where I have to tell people about You. You are giving me oppurtunities to be Your hands and feet, You are helping me see people the way You see them. Why do you trust me? I'm afraid of failing you! I don't want to dissapoint you Lord.

Thank you Lord for all the blessings that you have bestowed upon me. Thank you for giving me a sister who helps me when I am in need. Thank you for giving me friends who sharpen me. Thank you for always providing me with someone to go to church with. Thank you for giving me another day of life. Thank you for giving my family members another day of life. Thank you for allowing me to be at HBU and putting me in the role of an RA. Thank you for being good and showing me your grace and mercy.

Tonight I pray that you help me be the moon; help me be a reflection of you. You know what I need; satisfy me Lord. I'm tired of filling myself with the things of this world. My spirit is willing, but my flesh is weak! I know that You are strong; strengthen me! Show me that you are everything that You say You are. Give me words to speak when your people ask me questions about You. I can't do it alone. Lord, Restore in me the joy of your salvation. Never let me lose the wonder of the cross Lord! Also, burn away any and every desire that is not of you. Help me do everything for the right reasons. Please convict me Lord when I have alterior motives! Finally, I ask that you help me be a positive impact and that you save me from myself.