Annoyed

Lately, a lot of friends have been disappointing me. It's happened three different times this week. Sure, they haven't done anything huge, but it's still annoying. I wonder if you're testing me Lord? Are you showing me to always put my hope in You and never in man? It's something you're gonna have to walk me through. I'm so relational and need people around. If I don't, then I feel sad. I don't think this is necessarily wrong. You made man and saw that it was not good for him to be alone.

I'm trying not to be upset, but it's hard. Lord, help me not to go to bed angry. that's how the devil get a foothold. Honestly, i don't even know why i'm bothered. i sometimes tell people that i'm gonna do something with them and then bail out. maybe you're trying to show me how i've made people feel?

Well, i'm glad i got this out. because at first i wanted to distance myself from these people so they didn't have another opportunity to hurt me, but i'm gonna keep on loving them because that's what you called me to do.

shutting them out only hurts me

thank you for teaching me an important lesson. i think i caught a glimpse of how you feel when i sin against you. im sorry for disappointing you. you love me so much and i sin against you. next time i do, i'll remember how i felt today.